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After getting self-realisaiton… we start to engage in a very subtle battle between the head and the heart, or we can say the ego and the spirit. Up until the moment we gain our self-relisaiton we will have been under the complete “control” of our ego; we have made decisions based on our desires and wants, we have experienced emotional crests and troughs, we have suppressed our true selves beneath an unconscious set of accumulated baggage which has ruled our lives.
How many of us have ignored the warning signs of a relationships which was clearly not good for us, but whoch filled some other need – usually fear or loneliness? How many have accepted situations which we truly did not enjoy, want or need, simply to maintain our popularity or status with friends and family? Who hasn’t acted impetuously and stupidly and not regreted it afterwards? These are all signs of a perfectly normal lifestyle, but one that has been governed by the ego and superego in us. A life of compromise governed by our weakness. Even when we thought we were acting from the heart!
Now suddenly, after self-realisation, we recognise the spirit inside ourselves for what it is, our true guide. The ego suddenly has to operate alongside our enlightened spiritual attention, and so no longer maintains sole control of our actions and thoughts. For many of us, this fundamental spiritual shift is a traumatic change which doesn’t sit well with our mental view of who we are. We may not realise that, but our ego finds it difficult to let go. It is a conditioned response, driven by a lifetime of its influence; wanting, planning, thinking and taking actions. Suddenly it is sidelined.
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