1000 petals by axinia

the only truth I know is my own experience

My special New Years wishes December 31, 2011

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When a voice gets tuned by the spirit… December 29, 2011

Enjoy the highlights of one amazing Christmas concert in Vienna last week.

Item Nr. 1 is my sister Tatiana Samylova singing Belcanto aria.


I believe that desires…do not exist! December 23, 2011


There is a huge modern trend in the West, a trend to desire. Various psychological and pseudo-spiritual practices tell you that you only have to desire (put a picture of your desirable object on your wall, dream about it, etc) and with the time your thoughts will “attract” the thing you desire. And- yes! -for many people who try this method out it comes true.

Little do they think that this “works” probably due to some totally different rule…

Typical for the western ego-oriented mind we tend to think that the world runs around us. A very self-centred thinking. When step aside of that idea and take a look at he bigger picture, we can see a different image.

We can see that we all act in a huge cosmic play, according to a certain plan. There is scenario for everyone, every role is predestined. The only question is how good we are able to play our roles.

Since my early youth I have been trying to understand how this whole thing works. I have been watching and analyzing the events in my and other’s lives. And the conclusion I came to is the following. (more…)


My understanding of Destiny December 19, 2011

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Destiny…what a mysterious subject! For ages together human beings have been trying to uncover this enigma. Does a thing like Destiny exist? Is it all written somewhere before-hand for us? Or can we designour future according to our will?

My limited yet experience-based understanding is the following.

I belive my life is like a broad road. Within this road there are plenty of variation, various paths. I can go straight or curly, walk closer to the edge or just in the middle of it….The possibilites are may but they all exist within certain boundaries.

When I do something about myself, work on my qualities and improve in many ways, I keep walking the same road but I manage it easier, faster, more comfortable. If I don’t – I can experience some less pleasant things, but still they are all within this certain scenario of my life.

Such thing as the Destiny does exist, I am sure.

But what about the desires? Don’t they help to design our life-image? Pleas check the next post for one unexpected answer :).



Highly motivational! December 15, 2011

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What money has to do with the Archetype of Great Mother December 14, 2011

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Since the taboo topics of sex and death  have been widely discussed in the last 30 years, money is the last taboo that has remained to the Western civilization. The Belgian financier Bernard A. Lietaer breaks that taboo. Unaffected by the blindness of most financial people who take money for granted, he asked about the origin of our monetary system. Money, he stressed, is not a fixed size, but a bargain. It is the collective emotions of a society that shapes the monetary system.

Based on Carl Gustav Jung’s concept of archetypes Lietaer sets  the emotional origin of our free money system. Archetypes, understood as an emotional field, mobilizing people in certain directions, are used in Jungian psychology to explain collective human behavior. The suppression of a certain archetype can appear shadowy beings who are bound together by fear.
Lietaer claims it is the archetype of the Great Mother, the symbol of nature, fertility and abundance, which has always played a significant role in the West  and was violently suppressed in the last 500 years. As the shadow of this Great Mother Nature immerse the phenomena greed and fear of scarcity. The fear of scarcity creates greed and greed in turn, justifies the fear of scarcity. There is thus a self-fulfilling prophecy.
How strongly the use of monetary systems corresponds with the worship of the Great Mother archetype  Lietaer illustrated by the example of ancient Egypt. (more…)


The lack of self-discipline is a great problem of modern people December 8, 2011

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This is what I think looking at many modern people: the lack of self-discipline can be the source of many problems. The modern man likes to moan and groan about this and that, but tends not to take action. When having psychological or any motivational problems, many like to take “help” of a councillor, a consultant, a trainer or coach. The simple solution of activating the will power – in other words disciplining oneself does not come into their minds!

Why do I think it is a modern problem? Never ever in the history of humanity people had such a  comfortable life as we are having now. Our ancestors had to struggle with nature and poverty, we mostly don’t. We became lazy and demotivated.

Yesterday I had a meeting with one client who made a headhunting order with me – he was looking for a Family office Director for one famous affluent person. One of the criteria in the job profile was, besides Russian and English the knowledge of any other European language. I wondered why this. Why “any other”? I was told that learing a language certifies a person as a hard-working and self-disciplined. This is pretty true! I never looked at it from that angel but in fact I can confirm it to 100%. I remember how much strain and self-discipline it took me while I was learning Italian which I actually never needed much.

In the light of Sahaj knowledge we learn that self-discipline comes from the strong Guru-princip. It means that a self-disciplined person is a Guru/teacher for himself, knows what he really wants and needs and at the same time can do without any comfort if necessary. (more…)


Bad mood does not come from emotions December 4, 2011

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Unlike most of the post on this blog this is not my first-hand experience, rather the second-hand one. I mean the bad mood thing. Strangely enough I have never ever had the so-called “bad mood”, throughout my life I keep up a certain level of peaceful and a bit cheerful mood, and it never changes. It may look strange, but this is the way I am born with.

The phenomenon of the bad mood has been always puzzling me. While observing it by other people I has been always wondering how can it happen, what causes this malice? At the first sight it looks like a clearly emotional problem. However with some analysis one can see another coherency…

With the help of some moody friends I came to quite an interesting conclusion. The bad mood has nothing to do with emotions! It is directly derived from the Mr.Ego/or expectaions/conditiongs! We analysed many situation when all of a sudden the persons would fall into the band mood and it came out that nothing happened “all of a sudden”. There has always been some mental irritation, like someone has scratched the ego of a person. Either one felt not appreciated enough, or else, but there has always been some mental reason.

May be some you would not agree, then your experience-oriented comments are more than welcome! For me this realization is a great evidence how huge the impact of our ego can be – in every sphere of life, even where we normally suggest only emotions – verily, all problems come from our head :).




Gandhi’s Top 10 Fundamentals for Changing the World December 1, 2011

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1. Change

“You must be the change you want to see in the world.”

“As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world – that is the myth of the atomic age – as in being able to remake ourselves.”

2. Control.

“Nobody can hurt me without my permission.

3. Forgiveness

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

“An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind”                                                      

4. Action.    

“An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.” (more…)


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