1000 petals by axinia

the only truth I know is my own experience

Confirming stereotypes about Austria July 30, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 8:44 pm

Yes, Austria is picturesque.

Yes, it’s unreally beautiful.

Yes, lucky people live there.

After a short trip in a rural Austria I can only confirm this trivial statements with my photos:




The Image of a Primordial Woman July 29, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 6:46 am

When I was a child, I never liked to draw the blond princesses – my ones had always been dark-headed. Since that time I had somewhere deep in my head an image of a surrealy beautiful woman with unusually long dark curly hair, almond-shaped eyes and a thin wrist. Somehow it was my ideal. And that was not an image a child gets from the images of the Soviet culture! 

Nowadays looking at the beauty–queens of Miss Universe contests I see the same type of women being nominated as the ultimate beauty. Surprisingly enough one can seldom find a blond Miss Universe or Miss World – does the global community ignore the Mass Media selling strategies? Or is there some deeper message of the collective unconscious? 

When I later discovered the beauty of Indian scriptures, I was astonished to find out the exact description of my female ideal in Shri Lalita Sahasranama, a sacred Hindu text for the worshippers of the Goddess Lalita Devi, i.e. the Divine Mother, in the form of her and the male gods’ feminine power, Shakti.

It was C.G. Jung, a founder of analytical phsycology who first spoke of collective unconscious –  a part of a person`s unconscious which is common to all human beings. It containes architypes, which are forms or symbols that are manifested by all people in all cultures. (more…)


What one can do with only 3 strings! July 26, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 7:06 pm

Unbelievable but true:

 Alexey Arkhipovskiy is the man who plays like Paganini with literary 3 (!) strings (on Russian balalaika).

His 10- minute solo can completely “close” all shown up technical guitar tricks and his music is much more inventive .

“The sounds of three strings now brought on the audience the energy of the Niagara Falls, then soared like a quite crane over a lake surface, then seeped like honey from honeycombs in May.” Magazin  “America”:

Human beings are full of wonders!…




Can you be your own Guru? July 25, 2010

Today we have gurus everywhere – the imported Indian word is one of the coolest modern terms. Financial gurus, marketing gurus, management gurus… even the world of business is full of all guru types.

May supposition is that we live in a special time then people are learning faster than ever.  Everyone loves to learn from somebody. Fantastic!

The only problem is that even if we have a charismatic Guru personality giving wonderful lectures, we  cannot learn anything. We can only learn on our own. Making our own experiences. Making our own mistakes. We can be inspired by a guru, but unless and until we try something out, we will never learn.

I have a feeling that now the new time is coming when we can start realising that we can become our own Gurus. In fact, we have all the knowledge and understanding already built-in within us. We have to discover it. And become aware of it.

By now I have met only few people who are able to be their own gurus and not to just follow some genuine or false teaching. (more…)


The Unknown Russian mysticism July 20, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 6:42 am

Last years media’s enthusiastic reports about various religious and spiritual missions into Russia unknowingly supported common view of Russia as being wild and spiritually sterile country. However, the truth is that Russia  has  an old and rich spiritual  tradition.

Today’s  Russian  spirituality has  two  main roots or origins.  First  is  the  ancient  Slavic  paganism,  including  sorcery  and  healing  arts. This  culture  existed  on  the territory  of  Russia  in  the first centuries  of our era.  The  main  feature  of Slavic paganism was  pantheism:  earth,  trees,  rocks  and  rivers  were  considered  to  be  alive  conscious  beings. People spoke with earth and trees, related to them with love and respect. It was well known, for example, that oaks and pines are energy-giving trees, so that if you experience fatigue or depression, you may embrace the tree or just sit leaning against the trunk and will eventually feel the influx of vigor and well-being. Aspins, from the other hand, are energy – “sucking” trees and they were used to drain the bad energy of fever or inflammation from the body. Prostrations on the earth were the usual practice since Mother – Earth was believed to have a power to transform  as reflected in famous Russian tales. In general, early Slavic culture was a kind of child-like and carnival: there were a lot of holidays with funny games and dances around the trees. And  of  course,  Slavic tribes  had  their  own  medicine  men  and  women,  who were  called   wizards  or  sorcerers.  It’s  necessary  to  emphasize,  that  we  are  speaking  not  about    Siberian  Shamanism,  but  genuine  healing  arts  that  flourished  on  the  European  part  of  the  territory  of  Russia. The closest parallel would be practices of druids in Europe rather than shamanism. Slavic sorcerers, of course, applied herbs and prayers, but the most original were their refined techniques of using energies of earth, forest and rivers for healing and initiation.

           In 10th century Russia was converted into Eastern Orthodox Christianity. Though Church, of course, was at enmity with paganism, it’s interesting enough that in everyday life of Russian people these two traditions friendly merged. For the next 9 centuries Russians would celebrate both Christian and pagan holidays, attend church and perform pagan rituals, decorate houses with authentic pagan art together with Orthodox icons, prefer to be healed by the sorcerer rather than physician, and generally continue to be much more in tune with nature than any European nation.  Esoteric practices of Slavic sorcery  were also  kept  alive up to our days, passed  from  mouth  to  mouth through the lineages of healers. And even today  in  almost  every  far  away  village  in  Russia  we  could  find such  a  sorcerer, and some of them are pretty famous for miraculous cases of healing.  It’s a usual story in Russia when somebody suffering chronic illness  after  going  through all kinds of treatments in clinics and hospitals would become disappointed in conventional  medicine  and  take  off  to  some village to be healed by a wizard. Even  the Communist Party leaders,  who  had  the best doctors and special hospitals, secretly visited some  of  those  famous  healers.

Healing arts in this tradition were inseparable from refined techniques of using the energies of nature for the spiritual illumination. A practice, which has a parallel in American Indian shamanism, has to do with intentional use of the so-called power spots for healing and spiritual illumination. Certain places on the earth have specific influence on the state of consciousness and energy system of the body. The technique of locating such spots is similar to those described for approaching trees with one difference: attention is not only spread all over the body but also opened beneath like an umbrella scanning the surface of the earth as you walk. There exists an enormous variety in the types of influences power spots might have: cleansing, purifying  the whole energy field or particular channels; opening particular energy center which leads to experiencing corresponding emotions: love, joy (heart) or stability, serene power (lower centers); inducing non-ordinary states of consciousness; sometimes catalyzing spontaneous mystical experiences.

Second origin of today’s Russian spirituality is undoubtedly Eastern Orthodox Christianity, and within Orthodoxy there is a mystical tradition called Hesychasm. The name originated from the Greek word “Hesychia” which means inner silence. There are quite a number of good books in English on Hesychasm; however, this tradition, sometimes called Christian Yoga, is still surprisingly  little known on the West. (more…)


POLL: can you see Spirituality becoming popular with the mainstream? July 18, 2010

 Traditionally, religions have regarded spirituality as an integral aspect of religious experience. Many do still equate spirituality with religion, but declining membership of organized religions and the growth of secularism in the western world has given rise to a broader view of spirituality.

Secular spirituality carries connotations of an individual having a spiritual outlook which is more personalized, less structured, more open to new ideas/influences, and more pluralistic than that of the doctrinal faiths of organized religions. At one end of the spectrum, even some atheists are spiritual.In contrast, those of a more ‘New-Age’ disposition see spirituality as the active connection to some force/power/energy/spirit, facilitating a sense of a deep self. For some, spirituality includes introspection, and the development of an individual’s inner life through practices such as meditation, prayer and contemplation. Some modern religions also see spirituality in everything: see pantheism and neo-Pantheism. In a similar vein, Religious Naturalism has a spiritual attitude towards the awe, majesty and mystery it sees in the natural world.

Whatever we may call it, the question is whether you are observing the increase of interes to Spirituality worldwide? Since I have readers from all over the world here, would be really interesting to get their valuable insight!



The male is more dependent upon the female than she is upon him July 16, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 8:27 am

Each sex is made of the element of the opposite sex; the female born of the seed of the male, and the male molded in the womb of the female.

The sexes are dependent upon each other; but of the two, the male is more dependent upon the female than she is upon him. Her position in the scheme of nature is a more responsible one; and the greater the responsibility of a being, the greater is the dependence of others upon that being. An infant, whether boy or girt, is entirely dependent on the mother from the time that the seed is conceived, to the moment of its breathing the air of the earth. ‘The arms of the mother are the cradle of heaven’, it is said, and from infancy to youth the whole attraction of the boy is towards the mother. The cases where this is not so are exceptions, where there is a departure from the normal state of being.

It is the mother who keeps harmony between father and child, and between brothers and sisters. In poverty she has the care of the money; in sickness the burden fails upon her. She is the center of the pain of the house. It is her part to keep the family in friendship with the outside world, in sympathy with neighbors; to welcome strangers, and to receive visitors with a smile. Mohammed says, ‘Heaven lies at the feet of the mother’. Upon her constancy and endurance depends the unity of the home, which is the unit of the State. (more…)


Tagore says… July 12, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 9:44 am

Love is an endless mystery, for it has nothing else to explain it.

The butterfly counts not months but moments, and has time enough.

The potentiality of perfection outweighs actual contradictions… Existence in itself is here to prove that it cannot be an evil.

The water in a vessel is sparkling; the water in the sea is dark. The small truth has words which are clear; the great truth has great silence.

We live in this world when we love it. (more…)


Why is the rose colour so powerful? July 10, 2010

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 6:31 pm

This colour is probably the most impressive and is known to be most comforting for the heart-sick people.  There are many reasons the rose/pink colour has such a power over humans  – see my earlier post on it here.

Now I came across one sweet anthropological theory telling that in fact we feel attracted towards rose colour just because this is the only colour we could percept from our time at the mother’s womb. Basically seeing this colour awakens in us the deepest unconsious memories of the most comfortable period in our existence… remember? 🙂

LOVE, axinia


The true human rights July 8, 2010

The absolute value of individuals lies in the fact that they share with God an innate capacity for creative work and love.

The relative value of individuals depends on the level they have reached in their spiritual ascent, on the sum of efforts—both their own and Providence’s—spent on the attainment of that level, and on the degree to which they manifest in their lives those gifts for divine creative work and love…

The older religions judged the relative value of individuals by the degree to which they obeyed the prescriptions of a given religious-moral code. Religions with ascetic leanings believed the highest stage to be sainthood, defining it as either pure monastic service or as martyrdom for one’s faith. In so doing they relegated love to the background. A monk’s or martyr’s self-denial were performed not out of love for humanity or for all living beings but out of a yearning to merge with God and to avoid the torments of hell. I am, of course, referring here to the predominant tendency, the prevalent attitude, and not to such astonishing individual apostles of love as St. Francis of Assisi, Ramajuna, or Milarepa.
Monstrous though it may seem to us, even the eternal suffering of sinners in hell did not arouse in the majority of adepts of those religions the desire to enlighten the world’s laws, including the law of retribution, or karma. Eternal punishment for temporal sins appeared to them a just act of God or in any case (as in Brahmanism) an unalterable and absolutely immutable law. Buddha burned like a torch with the flame of compassion, but he, too, taught only how to free oneself from the wheel of iron laws and not how to enlighten and transform those laws. As for creative work, its intrinsic nature was not recognized at all—such a concept did not even exist—while little importance was attached to concrete forms of creative work accessible to ordinary people, with the exception of religious works in the narrow sense of the word: acts of charity, theology, missionary service, church architecture, and religious service.
Other religions that are not given to asceticism, such as Islam and Protestantism, modified the ideal of sanctity, broadening it and, at the same time, lowering it, making it more accessible, more popular, even going so far as to require the observance of commandments vis-a-vis God, the state, one’s neighbor, one’s family, and, lastly, oneself. It should be emphasized that neither one nor the other group of religions set themselves the task of transforming society, let alone nature.

It was only natural that such tasks were finally advocated by secular teachings, though in an extremely simplistic form. (more…)


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