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the only truth I know is my own experience

What’s your strongest quality? September 26, 2013

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Can we describe ourselves in one word? Normally it’s not easy. We think we possess many various qualities. However often people while giving  a reference on us, use only one or two words . It means there is one powerful personality trait which we should know about ourselves. It may not be what others think of us, but ideally it should correlate with the general opinion.

When I introspect on my strongest quality, several things come to my mind. And if I have to decide on only one, this is what comes up:

I do not have double standards an I am always the same – in every situation, with each and every person I behave the same way. I have same love and respect both for nice, positive people and for the negative ones, I treat a beggar and an oligarch with the same attitude, despite any set up. Is this sincerity? Or unconditional acceptance? I don’t know how to name this quality but this is what I believe is my strongest personality trait. Hopefully this is also what others see as my strongest trait as well.

And yours? Looking forward to read about your stongest qualties!

Thanks and loads of love,

axinia

 

30 things about me which may surprise you March 23, 2013

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  1. I don’t know what bad mood is
  2. Although I look quite sophisticated I can milk a cow and mow a meadow
  3. I worked as a cleaning lady when I lived for some time illegally in Europe
  4. I have never ever uttered a swearing word
  5. I never smoked
  6. I have no issues with forgiveness
  7. I am detached to food, have no favorite dishes and can eat anything
  8. I can never get out of home without makeup on my face
  9. I am easy to handle because I don’t react to others anger or stupidity; when someone is angry this makes me laugh
  10. I only had one single depression in my whole life, and I forgot already how it felt
  11. I grew up in a military ghetto with unique set up: no broken families, no old people, no crimes, only peace and order
  12. I was an outsider at school and could not find any common interest with my classmates
  13. I love “partner look” and we always wear same colours when we go out (my husband, our daughter and me)
  14. any ugly place can be turned into a cosy living home  – this is what I believe and can do
  15. My mood does not depend on weather, I believe there is no bad weather, I truly enjoy any type of it
  16. I am not much into cooking although I can cook really well if I have to
  17. due to my sahaja meditation practice I live in 4 dimensions, not three – it means I posses the next level of perception (vibrations) and use it on the daily basis for all life purposes
  18. my mind is always relaxed but at the same time very sharp (side effect of meditation practice)
  19. just by pointing out my attention to any subject,  I can precept it in total and study, analyze and influence anything in a short time
  20. in my wardrobe I have 30 skirts and only one pair of pants (for gardening)
  21. I  would feel uncomfortable seeing someone wearing same piece of cloths as me
  22. I have no driving license and no desire to drive a car
  23. I cannot swim
  24. I don’t watch TV since 8 years
  25. I used to read a lot but now since many years I hardly read a book per year, same for films
  26. I had an arranged marriage
  27. I don’t really know what is “my”: even my daughter whom I totally adore does not feel like “my” to me.
  28. I am never “achieving” any goals, things just come to me when my attention is persistent
  29. I feel EVERY person I meet is my friend
  30. People are my passion
 

How to outsource your personal growth February 25, 2013

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What a nonsense, you may say. How a personal growth can be outsourced? This is something highly personal which entirely depends on our own efforts and learning abilities. And yet I would claim it can be outsourced, let me tell you why and how.

The basic driving force in the human evolution has always been learning from experiences. Either exploring environment or building up their living comforts, people has been learning by doing. Some experiences became a success, but many more have been mistakes. Especially as far as psychological issues are concerned, talking of experiences people mostly mean pain.

I guess each of us can confess that learning from a painful lesson is a long-term thing, often it takes  not one or two, but many similar cases in order to realize the mistake and change the behavior. Learning from pain is painful and this is the way we have been learning since ages.

Is there any other chance to grow? Can this long, boring and painful way be outsourced? Can we develop ourselves through any outside help and – this would be the best – effortlessly?

YES, WE CAN!

The cool thing is that each and everyone of us has “something” inside our being which is not our being itself,  but a kind of an external part which is ready and happy to take over and do the personal/spiritual growth job for free! This part is tremendously powerful and intelligent, and it knows exactly how to help us out, even in our daily matters.

The sages and enlightened seekers of the past all knew about it and described their experience with this power in various cultures and religions, all in the same way. In the Indian tradition in Sanskrit language it is called KUNDALINI (here you can find an excellent description of this fantastic power).

Now how does it work?

1.You get your Kundalini awakened (here – how exactly, easy and fast)

2.You let her (this is a female energy) do the job: rising upwards your spinal chord Kundalini clears out your energy centers/chakras and removes your problems. The best thing is you can almost always precept it physically!

So basically you sit down in a nice meditation for some 10-15 min mornings and evenings and while this your Kundalini works. The perfect outsource, isn’t it? You do nothing, she does it all. You get up fully refreshed, happy, fully of energy and bliss! And by practicing this for some time you will find out that not only your old problems vanish, but an actual personal growth takes place – slowly but steadily. Even within a year or two a person can change dramatically to the best! And that -again – without any painful experiences.

This is my observation done for over 17 years since my Kundalini has been awakened. Within this time I had a couple of painful experiences but as far as I can judge, I did not learn that much out of them. I learned much more from Kundalini itself – the power which she carries is truth, auspiciousness, holiness, chastity, self-respect, detachment, oneness, enlightened attention, compassion, pure love and joy. This is all what I was lucky not only to experience through the Kundalini work but gradually to imbibe and manifest in my personal growth. This would not be possible for me by a mere human “learning by doing”, at least not in one life time.

LOVE
axinia

 

How to know you are doing “the right thing”? March 24, 2010

When you are working and you don’t feel you are “working”

When you are in relationship/marriage and don’t feel you are “working out something, building relationship”

When you percept anything you do as a natural flow, an enjoyment, a simple and easy thing

THEN

know that you are “in the right thing”. (more…)

 

 
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