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Do not expect to see your reflection while being photographed: Instead you will see the reflection of the photographer’s mindset February 7, 2014

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Photography is magic and to have one’s digital images is almost a must today because of the online acitivities like Social Networks. There is however one factor which should be seirously concidered while going for a nice portrait.

While being photgraphed we are expecting OUR image to be taken. Wrong! What comes up is the image of the photographer :), I mean of his/her inner world.

This is something I have noticed long ago and it keeps puzzling me. For instance, people who are strong and positive may not look so when photgraphed by some weired personalities. I remember once my sister who is a true angel, went for a professional photosession by one popular photographer in Germany. What came out waqs that she almost looked like a prostitute! – because that guy’s shooting style and perception was this way (we checked this other works, all the same).

There is so much magic about the photography, and the main secret of it is… that the beauty is indeed in the eye of the boholder!

P.S. The great Indian poet and Philosopher, Rabindranat Tagore said “In Art, man reveals himself and not his objects.”…I guess this is exactly what I meant, if we concider photography an Art.

LOVE

axinia

 

Levels of spiritual development: check yours! February 1, 2014

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Are you interested in identifying your level of spiritual development? Forget it, it’s a myth.

In many so-called spiritual practices or esoteric businesses people are getting their “spiritual degrees” after they have been paid sufficient amount of money or done some exercises. After my 18-year long spiritual practice I can tell you honestly, there is NO such thing as a “level” or ” degree” or “stage” in true Spirituality. Not only because Spirit is beyond any concept.

Simply because spiritual self-development is the finest and hardest work, with its ups and downs. The world has seen people falling from such heights!…Nobody can ever give any certification and guaranty for your spiritual grow, because it is such a living thing.

And this is what makes spiritual growth to the most fascinating and mysterious thing in the Universe!

Despite this news…keep growing! 🙂

LOVE

axinia

 

Spirit and Matter in Sufism January 28, 2014

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From the scientific standpoint, spirit and matter are quite different from each other, but according to the philosophical point of view they are one.

Spirit and matter are different, just as water is different from snow; yet again they are not different, for snow is nothing other than water. When spiritual vibrations become more dense they turn into matter, and when material vibrations become fine they develop into spirit.

For a Sufi at the beginning of his training the spiritual life is desirable, but after mastering it, material and spiritual lives become the same to him, and he is master of both.

Hazrat Inayat Khan A Sufi Message of Spiritual Liberty

 

The Quest of Man January 4, 2014

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The quest of man has been in his three dimensions: 1) his physical being 2) his
mental being 3) his emotional being.

Man’s first and foremost problem has been that of
sheer physical existence. In the past as well today the cruel forces of nature kept him
worried as to how to preserve his own existence. After some time, all human efforts to
preserve human life become deadly enemies of man’s existence. For example, mankind
created the atomic and the hydrogen bombs, and now they have turned out like deadly
monsters. He created many human institutions like kingdoms and states to free himself
from the fear of destruction for the whole human race. All his efforts were in vain though.

One could understand his fear from forces which were not human, but today man is
faced with the fear of destruction from his own fellow human beings. So he is experiencing
fear itself, and created by himself. The all-out effort to establish security for human life has
potentially created insecurities of an explosive nature.

Man’s need for physical enjoyment
has driven him to another extreme position where he has learned that no amount of
physical enjoyment results in joy (Ananda). On the contrary, human life fills with
unbearable tensions and frustration. The so-called affluent countries have the maximum
number of frustrated, desperate, sickened human beings. (more…)

 

New Year Resolution

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MAY I THIS YEAR

BE WHAT YOU`D HAVE ME BE

MAY I THIS YEAR

SAY WHAT YOU`D HAVE ME SAY

MAY I THIS YEAR

BE PART AND PARCEL OF THE WHOLE

AND MAY MY THOUGHTS BE

OF A REALIZED SOUL

MAY I THIS YEAR

HAVE LOVE FOR ALL MANKIND

GOD, BE IN MY HEART AND IN MY MIND

 

Have you got a mentor? November 20, 2013

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Since I was a child I had an enormous drive to self-development. And although many wonderful people surrounded me, no one could serve me as a role model and teach me things I was looking for. I was all on my own, trying to understand myself and the world, reading serious literature at 10, being busy with geo-political questions at 12 and writing a thesis in philosophy at 15. After having swallowed a huge amount of books I realised that my steps in self-development are still too slow and I lack some practical approach. Too much theory makes no sense. Then I tool to psychology and was soon disappointed at the negative nature of this kind of science. All trainings I went through looked interesting but had the yo-yo effect: all changed they have brought, vanished after some time. Something solid and substantial was badly missing in my life.

Thus at 20 I was desperately asking God to save me a Teacher. I realised I needed SOMEONE who could show me the right way and give not only some beautiful theory but also a real practical application of it. Shortly after feeling this I came to Sahaja Yoga which fulfilled all my spiritual self-development desires. I was more that happy to get he guidance of the most amazing Gurus of all times, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi who was so generous in not only revealing endless secret knowledge about human nature, and actually gave fantastic instruments to an easy and quick self-development, which was my primary and the only wish.

However due to my highly idealistic and spiritual nature I soon realised how “immature” and naïve I was regarding the daily matters. At 22 I found myself all alone in a foreign country – divorced, brocken, without any means to existence. Many good people wanted to support me, and luckily did that. However I needed to stand up on my own….but… I obviously could not do it alone, because my views on life were too naive…And here comes another wonderful gift of destiny into play!

A met a person who became my best mentor ever in all “material” questions. When I first saw this person I thought: “Well probably he would help with a job?” – and how right this supposition was! We became friends, and out of the nature of this person, he on his own wish become my mentor. In the beginning of our friendship he used to invite me for a dinner and ask about my life views. Then he tried to show me the different perspective. He had a solid banking background and two MBA’s in Wealth Management – imagine, just the opposite of the direction which I would choose. In fact, he was really educating me – free of charge, but with a back thought: at some point he opened his own company and invited me to join. Then he kept training me as his assistant. He tought me how to ask right questions, how to see in the  “material” root of every issue, how to “check” people, how to keep the philosophical attitude to work and money. I recently realised that all I know about the material side of live I due to my dear mentor! I would never be able to learn it myself, at least not in one life. He made it very easy and applicable to me. No need to say I am still working for this person and more than happy about it :).

I don’t know about other’s experiences on that but my life shows that one needs a good mentor to come forward. I feel so lucky that both – my spiritual and material seeking have been fulfilled and this gave me a chance to become a mentor for others too. This is the way it works.

LOVE

axinia

 

Does money spoil people? November 8, 2013

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There is a common belief that money spoil people. Stories are being told of nice people who, after getting rich, become horrible. I tend not to belive in such transformation. Let me show you why.

Since several years I work very closely with bankers, particularly with private bankers, who deal only with so-called High-Net-Worth-Individuals. It means these bankers operate with million-dollar/euros accounts and enjoy various benefits from assisting their affluent clients. Also many have a chace of earning a lot with side-services, even illegally. So basically one is very much exposed to seeing big money and the chances to get rich too. My observations show that people who are good-natured and decent, honest and self-respecting remain the same. The ones who have had some “worm” of indecency, are getting worse and worse…Yes, money spoils but only whose who are already spoiled. 

I think even moeny can be the best litmus test ever: Give a person access to big moeny and see if and how he/she will change. I bet that truly grounded, stable personalities will remain within theri best qualities and will only show more generosity.

This is again my very personal observation. Have any of you got the feeling of the opposite being the truth?

Thanks for sharing your experiences!

LOVE
axinia

 

A friend in need is a friend indeed? There is a much better friendship test! November 5, 2013

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My first personal insight on a true friendship was that the friend is not the person who helps you out in a difficult situation but the one who can enjoy your joys. Indeed I have noticed that many people are happy to help out, in some or other way if anything bad happens. However not many are able to enjoy what you enjoy. 

Recently I thought of another important friendship distinction:

A true friendship passes through the “money test”, and the false one not. How many stories we all have heard/experienced when so-called best friends, being in a business situation of making and sharing money, suddenly part and fight? How many seemingly stable and good relationships have been brocken when money came into the play?

Luckily I never experienced that, in fact just the opposite: one of my best, long-term friends is at the same time my employer and the money issue makes no impact on our wonderful relationship. But I know of many opposite cases.

Somehow or rather, money has its power spell over relatioshiops. Therefore it is the best friendship test.

LOVE, axinia

 

Music in relatioships October 24, 2013

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The seer, the deep thinker, the knower of human nature, acts also as a musician by finding in people’s actions their tone and rhythm.

He notices in an untimely action, caused by ignorance or impatience, the irregularity of the rhythm; and in a word or action that has a harder or softer effect than it should have he sees the false tone, the false note. He also feels consonant or dissonant chords.

When two people meet the dissonant chord of their evolution keeps them distant from one another in thought, although they may be sitting near together; and often a third person comes who either harmonizes the dissonant chord or produces disharmony in the consonant chord.

The Sufi Message of Hazrat Inayat Khan

 

A holy German doctor was the kindest person in the Russian history October 16, 2013

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Some time ago I  was taken aback by a film about one amazing Italian doctor  who was a remarkable 20th century saint – see my post here. I highly recommend watching this inspiring Italian film on Moscati’s life, “Giuseppe Moscati. Healing Love”.

Recently I discovered another – very similar! – saintly doctor, a German with  a Russian soul who’s life and deeds were not less impressive and inspiring. Unfortunately there is no film yet about him, but I am happy to post some words here.

Theodore Haas  (1780-1853) is called the “holy doctor.” They also say that he was the kindest man in the Russian history. And, as the Russian history is full of paradoxes, you probably should not be surprised that the kindest person in that predominantly Slavic and Orthodox country is considered to be a German Catholic Frederick Joseph Haas (Theodore Haas).

The holy doctor has done more for Russian commoners in the early nineteenth century than all the doctors in his era . His white robe was seen in prison hospitals and convict shipments . A German by birth, he had a great opportunity to become a successful ophthalmologist at home. However, having received an invitation to work temporarily in Russia , remained forever . Initially, Theodore Haas opened his private practice and made it very successful and generating much revenue. In his clinic , and some other medical institutions of Moscow , he was treating eye diseases free of ordinary people , for which he was given state awards. He was invited to treat members of the imperial family, as well as patients from all over the country. And, despite the fact that he spent much time on free medicine and charity, despite his wishes, he made ​​a fortune. He obtained two houses in Moscow and a cloth factory in the suburbs.

During the Napoleonic Wars , Theodore Haas leaves practice and joins the regular army . He comes to Paris with Russian troops. After the war, Theodore Haas goes home and , despite the entreaties of the family, returns to Russia . There he finds his destroyed hospital and a lot of the work waiting for him in the public service . Theodore Haas gets a new assignment. Now he is the chief physician of the Moscow prison . There he encountered a blatant system treatment of prisoners and persons under investigation . Iron shackles , the lack of effective treatment , both in prison and hard labor . And Theodore Haas gets to work , which has become his life’s work .

From 1828, he devoted himself as a member of the Moscow prison protection committee for 25 years of caring for the prisoners who had been exiled to Siberia. He was firmly convinced that man is inherently good because God created him in his image. Therefore, was a man who had strayed from the right path, nothing more than an unfortunate, sick man who is to heal only through humanity.

A short story. Every week on Sparrow Hills  the next party of convicts sentenced to hard labor was departing for Siberia . Relatives were allowed to accompany them to a village near Moscow . And every week doctor Haas had also been walking with them till this village. Before parting he used to give candies and oranges to the criminals.

– Well, how would your candies help these hungry people? ! – Detractors said. – You’d better give them some bread.

– They will get bread sooner or later, but sweets and oranges they will never see – replied Fedor Petrovich (as he was called in Russia) .

“The Holy doctor” recasts his personal funds for the prison clinic at Sparrow Hills . By complex contracts with the General Gendarmerie , Theodore Haas replaces the iron shackles of other, more humane. Now, they are trimmed with cloth or leather. It initiates the request for pardon convicts and redemption serfs. In his active support of revised sentences and built hospitals and schools for the prisoners and their families. He managed to overturn a humiliating procedure shaving heads. However, all “acts of humanity ” have not gone unnoticed in the king’s officials, who did not understand why make life easier for criminals. Through the efforts of a handful of bureaucrats Theodore Haas was removed from his post. This event did not break the spirit of the “good doctor” and he continued to be an angel in a white coat to all who need his help.

He knew people very well. He immediately saw what kind of a man was in front of him. Despite that he had no fear even before hardened villains, murderers and would boldly enter a chamber. He tried to soften their souls, to comfort. He wrote: “The medical profession gives me access to not only the body but also the soul of the patient. And a try to heal the soul is as important as the healing of the body.”

In 1844 he opened a hospital for the homeless, funded by his entire personal wealth and private donations. The holy doctor Haass worked until the end of his life in that hospital.

After the doctor’s death  only a few old telescopes were found in his apartment– that was all that remained of his property. Getting tired of the day view of human suffering , Haas at night enjoyed looking at the stars.

His coffin was carried on the hands of doctors to Vvedenskogo cemetery in Lefortovo. It was accompanied by a huge crowd of 20.000 people. Moscow Governor-General Earl Zakrevskii sent Cossack squadron under the command of captain with orders to ” disperse the mob .” But as they reached  the funeral , Captain, stunned by the sincere grief of ordinary people, dismounted , ordered the Cossacks to go back to the barracks , and he went on foot behind the coffin.

“HURRY UP TO DO GOOD!” – this is what the holy doctor Haas used to say, and this saying is still famous in Russia.

 

 
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