As I mentioned earlier in my posts, I read little nowadays. I used to read a lot in my childhood and youth but then got fed up with books. I wanted my real experiences instead of someone else’s wise or stupid ideas. Today I try to pick up true jewels for I have no time for just good things.
A book “Expecting to Fly” is one of such diamonds. The rare beauty of it lays in the fascination and depth of author’s experiences. Yes, it is all about experiences on the seeking path. Ultimately it is all what really makes sense I belive.
The book “Expecting to Fly” is autobiographical, Patrick Sheridan is a classical seeker from the 60- 70-s with heavy alcohol and drug background. I found it an intriguing read to learn about his journey which came out to be quite spiritual. This was all totally unfamiliar to me. I always had a natural dislike for all kinds of chemical substances like cigarets, alcohol and drugs – never tried and never wanted them. I have been that kind of intellectual seeker who searched for Truth only on the mental level. Ultimately I found out that the Truth is something beyond the mind and can be experienced rather mundane even as a physical sensation…Yes, generally my seeking approach was of a totally different art than that of Patrick. That is why I was keen on reading about some different experiences which led a great seeker to – surprise, surprise! – the same Truth.
The author depicts his life beginning with childhood, stept by step unfolding his seeking nature. The excessive drinking and drug consume of his youth are quite impressive – although there are lots of people practicing it too, I find it remarkable to read that someone has done all that and is still alive and flourishing…trully amazing. The author stated that in fact it was his drug experiences (in particular LSD) which let him first experience the high state of consciousness and realize that there is something beyond the reality we think we live in. The LSD trips had such an impact on the author that the descriptions of it could almost be taken for a drug advertisement. However later on he admits that the occasional highs are leading nowhere because of lack of system behind and dramatic health and subtle system damage. At some point Patrick meets a Yogi Lady (Shri Mataji) who unveils the Mystery to him through granting the pure high drug-free experiences. The author quoits Shri Mataji saying later on that “drugs could open up realms of experience not meant for human beings, however intriguing they might appear. Once she likened it to venturing behind the scenes in a power plant where dangerous forced were at work, instead of tapping the energy at its intended point of use”.
I like the way author shares his first encounter with Shri Mataji: “ My first feeling was one of surprise. I had anticipated a hasted, mystical atmosphere and was confronted instead by an extraordinary Indian lady, who seemed ten times more alive than anyone I had met before. My surprise quickly grew into astonishment as I realised that everything around me seemed full of light, and I sensed tremendous spiritual power being commanded in the room. I felt as if I stumbled out of a jungle path onto a broad, royal highway, and I had the oddest sensation of having somehow walked inside tha pages of a Bible – as if a scene from a biblical epic was taking place all around me.”
After getting his Kundalini awakened Patrick, along with some emotional and physical ups and downs continues getting experiences of high consciousness, especially that of oneness or the appearing of cosmic archetypes. The descriptions of these experiences are not only exciting but also highly meditative and make a true feast for a seeker.
The quote which says it best:
“I had to laugh at ponderous intrigues of religious and occult mystery that had so fascinated humanity down through the centuries. Secret knowledge and ancient riddles where the stuff of mind and matter; the truth was far more fantastic than we could have imagined, and it had been staring us in face all the time”.
The book is a must read for anyone with drug experience but not only, even an ordinary seeker can find a lot to ponder, wonder and enjoy.