1000 petals by axinia

the only truth I know is my own experience

The most silly question people keep asking me October 12, 2009

When the cold time is coming, I dress myself warm and enjoy the cold. If I am not dressed warm enough, I naturally freeze  🙂 At this moments all possible people start asking me: “how it is possible that you are freezing, you are RUSSIAN!” And this is, really, sounds the too silly to me. Why should Russians have different body temperature? Because they live in “cold climate”? Science say that it is either te muscles or the fat that keeps the body warm. But not being originally from Russia 🙂

Russians indeed know how to keep warm in the cold winter (albite the spring and the summer are pretty cold as well!) and the 2 main reasons are:

1.The central heating system (thanks God for the natural resources) works very well. People are not used to save money on heating (at least it was in my childhood) because it costs almost nothing.

2.The most logical thing: dress up yourself warm! 🙂 Interestingly, this is not that logical for my Western friends. I see people freezing and being dressed rather insufficient. Then,  because of saving money obsession, many do not heat up their homes properly. They freeze inside, they freeze outside. No wonder the hearts get closed 😦 A freezing person is unlucky to feel happy I think. (more…)


Tell me, what is compassion? October 9, 2009

This is not a rhetorical question, I really would like to know the real meaning of this word, because I guess I still do not have this adorable quality…

I have found some answers but they are not sufficient to me. Please help!

From Wikipedia:

Compassion is a human emotion prompted by the pain of others. More vigorous than empathy, the feeling commonly gives rise to an active desire to alleviate another’s suffering. It is often, though not inevitably, the key component in what manifests in the social context as altruism. In ethical terms, the various expressions down the ages of the so-called Golden Rule embody by implication the principle of compassion: Do to others what you would have them do to you. The English noun compassion, meaning to suffer together with, comes from the Latin.

Well, if I analyse that explanation, then I admit I am quite an altruist. And I also live according to the rule Do to others what you would have them do to you. Albite, honestly this is not the best rule, because obviously not everyone may like to be treated like myself (straight and direct), it is also not desirable in many cultures. I like another rule better: Do to others what they want you to do to them. But that one is not easy to fulfill, as we cannot always know what type of behaviour a next person prefers. Where I have a difficulty is with the first sentence –  I am not sure I want to co-suffer. I certainly not. I do experience pain for others, but this is something else: if somebody’s heart is in pain (physically or emotionally) my own will also hurt, however this happens automatically, my body just works this way. Even if in this way I take aways some pain, still I would not call it compassion because it is not done consciously.

Another explanation from my previous post : “The compassionate heart forgives instantly”, if it is so, then I must be called a compassionate person because forgiving has always been the easiest thing for me.

If I see the pain of others my first intention is to help, however I can. And mostly I know how. I will not co-suffer though, will not cry or moan. I just help however I can.

And yet… I can’t call myself a compassionate person. I just can’t explain why, but this is what I feel. Something is missing…

I wonder how do YOU see compassion? And if you consider yourself a compassionate person, then how is it being expressed in your life? (more…)


The way an open heart operates October 7, 2009

What do we know about being open hearted? We may certainly understand what the media portrays as love; it is two people finding each other attractive, falling in love and marrying in one episode (after a small yet entertaining bust up, of course). For many people, this simplistic chain of events is their ultimate dream, and of course they are often disappointed when things don’t turn out exactly as they had hoped, and the dream fades aways under an onslaught of bickering or misunderstanding.

The heart is the seat of our love and home to our compassion. However all too often we are afraid ot open up and allow these wonderful qualities to flow as they should. We hide behind our fears, doubts and ambitions, displaying a false mask to the world to avoid being hurt. The result is the society based on illusion, hidden behind ego and posturing, never truly communicating as human being to human being. Small wonder then that the divorce rate is so high in the modern world, and that relationships come and go as the wind blows. (more…)


My vision of the 21st century Arts October 4, 2009

Declaimer:this is my personal opinion/dream/hope/ of what the Arts will be like in the 21st century. And although the century has already started, due to the global transformation of collective consciousness which is currently taking place, in some years or decades the world may change tremendously and the new world with the new values will appear in its magnificent beauty…
Since ages the main task of any kind of art – music, literature, painting, theater, film etc. has been to make people think, to develop their introspection abilities, to cultivate their emotions.For the humanity has been only able of percepting the world through 5 senses.
Even though Love has been the most popular theme, the conflicts within a piece of art has been built upon the main human weaknesses like jealousy, lust, greed, anger and revenge.
This is what we have had so far. However that will not last that long, since many people are obtaining the 6th sense and start percepting the word differently, their values change, as well as the ability to enjoy all kinds of Arts.
I believe that instead of the mental and emotional enjoyment, the measure of all things will be the joy of the Spirit (manifesting through vibrations). The masterpieces of tomorrow will not inspire us to discuss things, will not make us weep… The Masterpieces of tomorrow will make us blissfully thoughtless.
Thus, my prediction is that 90% of the contemporary Arts will die out, probably only very few masterpieces of the world classics will remain. Basically, all the Arts will have to be re-invented. The leading topic will not be the overcoming of difficulties by one hero, by a group fo people or a community. The Art will become more “collective” addressing more global issues rather than the sufferings of one person.
And here is the example of the New Art  – the voice that is reaching out to the Spirit, beyond the mind and emotion.
LOVE, axinia

Are you an intellectual? October 1, 2009

Intellectuals are those nice people who think they reach their destination merely by studying the road map.Gregoir de Kalbermatten

I love this quote! I was a classical intellectual since my childhood – books meant everything to me and mental knowledge was the measure of all things. At some point I realised that this leads nowhere, that I dramatically miss the REAL knowledge. And I did not mean the knowledge of what is called “life experiences”, no. It was the longing for something else, something universally accessable and clear, powerful and very practical… I was fed up with studying the road map, I wanted finally to reach my destination.

And it turned out to be possible! The guide was called (more…)


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