photo Amery Carlson
I came across one funny test based on destiny cards (These cards represent personality archetypes, symbols of our personal expression that reflect what the important elements of our life will be like). I normally never take these things seriously. Same with this stuff. But one thing appeared to be absolutely crucial to me!
After I logged in my birthday dates the system showed me that my card is the CARD OF A LOVING FATHER, the King of Hearts. I failed to recognize myself much in the description, however the core idea stroke me and inspired to write this post.
I suddenly realized that I am truly more of a father type than a mother.
My love – which is very much there for everyone! – is not of that compassionate type of a mother.
My love is not passive, it is active and it awaits action.
I love to do things for people. I love to elevate! To bring the best of the best to the heart of everyone… But I love to see people grow, blossom out with all the colors and petals, deepening their roots into the spiritual dimension…
I am afraid I can not love unconditionally, for I have this very condition and can’t help it. Still a long way for me to grow!
I used to be very impatient and tried to challenge everyone, to overpower and to teach. Time passed and I learned to respect others ways. But I will unlikely keep up a relationship with someone not willing to grow. Even if my heart is wide open, there is not enough fuel to keep the friendship running in that case.
People say I mother them, caring and supporting, always there, always giving and forgiving. But I feel it is fatherly, not motherly love…
Because it is demanding: not the love back but the blossming out, opnening up. Noble aim, but still not unconditional!
What is a woman without motherly love? I hope it will sprout one day…