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Does the world really need another great war? April 15, 2014


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Unfortunately the situation in Ukraine is getting worse, and it looks like a war is about to start…But I cannot get rid of a feeling that it is all being made of and conducted between USA and Russia, according to some prior agreement. At the surface it looks different, but while trying to get a bigger picture, this is what comes up for me.

Recently one high rank Austrian banker told me “After all…we had no war since 60 years! So much money has been printed, so many weapons produced…the world economy is stagnating…it needs a way out”. How brutal it may sound, but a war brings an economic boost.This is probably what the politicians think of.

But of course I have no idea what the real reason is (Who can actually have any? The true backgrounds are mystery anyways)…and of course my only heart desire and everyday prayer goes to Ukraine, that a war will NOT take place. And lots of people do the same, I know!

A philosophical question which bothers me about this situation is of another kind.

Since the 1970 there was a strong feeling in the world that people, more than ever in the human history are discovering their inner Self, getting to Spirituality. It looks like a global transformation is taking place…And a question comes up….Have the Earthlings not evolved since the last World War? Have they not become better, more satisfied, more knowledgeable, advanced compared to their ancestors? For instance, even on the material level, according to life standards the world population had the best life ever in 2013, .

All that gives an idea that probably we have evolved at least a bit, we are different now!  - The recent happenings show however that such mental techniques as propaganda, no matter on which side, are able to brainwash almost any deep and intellectual soul. The situation around Ukraine shows how badly people are falling into that trap despite all their seeking, evolvement, working on themselfes…That’s shoking!

Does it mean, the world will never change? It is that unless and untill everyone has even a single drop of hate in the heart, the danger of a war is always there?

I do hope it will, but so far I cannot see it. Probably it’s still a long way to go.


LOVE, and loads of it to everyone!



What I learned from the Russian-Ukrainian conflict March 29, 2014


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Since I am Russian and my beloved husband is Ukrainian, the story of the ongoing Russian-Ukrainian conflict around Crimea and more has a lot been in my attention. And because I have no TV at home and read Internet very selectively I could more or less survive the information war. But even if I try to minimise the information flow by getting possibly the first-hand impressions and facts from the people involved, I am still getting a lot of buzz from the world Russian-Ukrainian community…. It is really hard to stay cool!

However the hardship of the situation helped me to learn two great lessons. And I hope many more people will be able to see it in the same way.


This is something we learn throughout the history of humanity but obviously always forget when something happens: We are not able to find out all the reasons, all the real players and all real facts about any historical happening unless and until some time passes. The amount of totally useless thoughts in the heads of people trying to analyze the reasons and forecast the develop of the situation around Ukraine and Russia is terrifying. The heads are overheated and people keep on this nonsensical reactions. The truth is   – we will not be able to see the Truth right now. It is much more importatnt to keep a cool head and a good meditative state, and to point out the attention to the overall benevolence.


The current situation shows dramatically what huge damage to a personal development can identification with one’s nation of origin bring. Many people whom I knew as nice and spiritual, suddenly went mad about being Ukrainians or Russians, really hating the other side and some even breaking their friendships with “the enemy”. How horrible is that?!? Horrible and very sad to observe. Doest it mean all our talks and beliefs in some kind of spiritual development are mere self-illusions? This current test shows where we really stand.

It seems to me that even though in the 20th century some patriotic movements did good to some countries, we live in a different time now. What I can conclude from the current Russian-Ukrainian issue, the patriotism is only contra-productive, bringing bitter division and hate. I believe that people who consider themselves sensible, good-hearted and wise should really go beyond this false identification. It is time to become one, to accept and love people regardless their place of birth. It would be great if one day the whole of mankind would realize that. But if the spiritual people will not come to it, the rest will never come.

Let us go deeper in ourselves and honestly ask ourselves what our patriotism gives us except of an Ego? Let us go beyond, let us become one.




Ever heard of TTIP? The new World Government is being installed but it will not do us good! March 6, 2014

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Ever dreamed of having THE WORLD GOVERNMENT?

Right now, this very moment in time, a global government is being installed. The treaties you have or haven’t heard about such as the Trans Pacific Partnership(TPP) and the Transatlantic Trade and Investment Partnership (TTIP), as it is being called by the EU, also referred to by the US as the Trans-Atlantic Free Trade Agreement (TAFTA), are being negotiated purely to favor the corporations and banks.

These treaties and the ones that will follow in the future have to make sure that multinational corporations can take over the world economy and therefore every aspect of anyone’s life.

Don’t take our word for it, just read the treaties yourself. However, it’s going to be quite difficult to read every page of those treaties since everything is secret. That’s right, you’re not allowed to know what is being negotiated. You’re not allowed, according to the corporations and governments that join the negotiations, to know which decisions are being made that will impact your life in such ways that your life will never be the same again, once the treaties are fully implemented. By that time you’ll have a very hard time to even try to resist it and fight for your rights. On the short, what will TTIP bring about?

The officil infromation promissies TTIP will create jobs, boost exports and enchance the economy. Hoewever this is not true. The truth is, it will make our life worse.

Corporations will become even more powerful, governments will have little or no influence anymore and democracy, well, that will be something we will talk about during history lessons only. If that would be allowed by the almighty multinationals, since these treaties and the associated secret courts will allow them to overrule any government policy anywhere in the world.

The major changes TTIP is about to bring:

- TTIP undermines democracy and the rule of law : Foreign corporations can sue States in the future on high compensation payments, which meets arbitration when they pass laws that could reduce their profits.

- TTIP opens the door to privatization : The agreement should make it easier for corporations to make profits at the expense of the general public water supply, health and education.

- TTIP endangers our health : what is allowed in the U.S., would be legal in the EU – that would give clear the way for fracking , GMO food and hormone-treated beef . The peasant agriculture is weakened and the agricultural industry gets even more power .

- TTIP undermines freedom : it threatens even more comprehensive supervision and tutelage of internet users. Excessive copyrights restrict access to culture, education and science.

- TTIP is practically irreversible : Once decided , the contracts for elected politicians are no longer to change . Because with every change, all parties need to agree. Germany alone could not get out of the contract , as the EU enters into the Agreement .

Do we really want all these and more? NO!

As the negotiations are in the last stage, let us point our enlightened attention to the subject and do whatever we concider right to block this absurd treaty.


P.S: interestingly there is a protest movement not only in Europe but also in the USA. The article in one american magazine says”

“This agreement is likely to further entrench the power of corporations to shape the laws of sovereign nations to fit their needs. If we allow this agreement to pass, we will give up more of our sovereignty, not to Europe, but to corporations who care only about their bottom lines. It would allow corporate interests to take advantage of trade and investment benefits allowing them to consolidate their financial, economic, and political power…Just like with the TPP, our President and his cohorts are taking measures to ensure the TTIP negotiations are secret, out of the public eye, and heavily aided by corporate lawyers out to increase their profits at the cost of our sovereignty.”

Also read:

The Lies Behind this Transatlantic Trade Deal – The Guardian


TAFTA, the US-EU’s Trojan Trade Agreement – Electronic Frontier Foundation


The False Promise of the Transatlantic Trade and Investment Partnership – EurActive


From fatherly to motherly love February 11, 2014

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 3:17 pm

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Back in 2007 I wrote a post called “ A Woman with fatherly love” where I described the demanding nature of my love. I would love people but not unconditionally, I had only one but serious condition: a person must be willing to grow. At that time I also realised that I totally lack compassion and I thought this would be a life-long task for me to work it out.

However the beauty of a personal growth is such that things develop even without any special attention on that. Never ever have I done any special treatment to training for compassion. I was convinced that is something too deep to be able to train. At some point I realised that I managed to obtain it! Recently I noticed that my attitude to people has changed a lot. I started loving people unconditionally, regardless their depth or desire to grow. Just excepting any one as he/she is. My fatherly love was transformed into the motherly love, almost unknowingly for myself…

Obvisouly the reason of me physically becoming a mother has contributed a lot to that, but I think it started even earlier. May be it is the wisdom and maturity which a person gains with years…Whatever it is, I am so grateful I can experience and enjoy that tremendous unconditional love!



Do not expect to see your reflection while being photographed: Instead you will see the reflection of the photographer’s mindset February 7, 2014

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 2:12 pm

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Photography is magic and to have one’s digital images is almost a must today because of the online acitivities like Social Networks. There is however one factor which should be seirously concidered while going for a nice portrait.

While being photgraphed we are expecting OUR image to be taken. Wrong! What comes up is the image of the photographer :), I mean of his/her inner world.

This is something I have noticed long ago and it keeps puzzling me. For instance, people who are strong and positive may not look so when photgraphed by some weired personalities. I remember once my sister who is a true angel, went for a professional photosession by one popular photographer in Germany. What came out waqs that she almost looked like a prostitute! – because that guy’s shooting style and perception was this way (we checked this other works, all the same).

There is so much magic about the photography, and the main secret of it is… that the beauty is indeed in the eye of the boholder!

P.S. The great Indian poet and Philosopher, Rabindranat Tagore said “In Art, man reveals himself and not his objects.”…I guess this is exactly what I meant, if we concider photography an Art.




Levels of spiritual development: check yours! February 1, 2014

Filed under: thoughts — axinia @ 9:53 pm

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Are you interested in identifying your level of spiritual development? Forget it, it’s a myth.

In many so-called spiritual practices or esoteric businesses people are getting their “spiritual degrees” after they have been paid sufficient amount of money or done some exercises. After my 18-year long spiritual practice I can tell you honestly, there is NO such thing as a “level” or ” degree” or “stage” in true Spirituality. Not only because Spirit is beyond any concept.

Simply because spiritual self-development is the finest and hardest work, with its ups and downs. The world has seen people falling from such heights!…Nobody can ever give any certification and guaranty for your spiritual grow, because it is such a living thing.

And this is what makes spiritual growth to the most fascinating and mysterious thing in the Universe!

Despite this news…keep growing! :)




Spirit and Matter in Sufism January 28, 2014

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From the scientific standpoint, spirit and matter are quite different from each other, but according to the philosophical point of view they are one.

Spirit and matter are different, just as water is different from snow; yet again they are not different, for snow is nothing other than water. When spiritual vibrations become more dense they turn into matter, and when material vibrations become fine they develop into spirit.

For a Sufi at the beginning of his training the spiritual life is desirable, but after mastering it, material and spiritual lives become the same to him, and he is master of both.

Hazrat Inayat Khan A Sufi Message of Spiritual Liberty



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